No-Pay Leave

Husband told me last night he feels down and depressed sometimes but he doesn't know why. He thinks he may be facing a mid-life crisis. Well, I think the burden of being the sole breadwinner is finally getting to him, sub-consciously at least.

All the more, I tell myself I must go back to the workforce. For good I mean. Really, it is hard for a family to survive comfortably on a single source income in Singapore unless: 1) you are really thrifty 2) the person earning is bringing lots of $. Since we belong to neither category, it is more practical for me to go back to work. It is good for keeping my mind active too.

That said, I still feel sad that I can't be spending so much time with Ying Ying anymore. :(

Having not worked for almost one and a half year, I am already feeling the stress of going back to work. Just the other night, I dreamt I was very late for a class and worse, I didn't prepare anything to teach. Horrible. I hate being ill-prepared at work.

Anyway, I met up with an ex-colleague a couple of days ago. We have not met for nearly a year and she was so impressed that Ying Ying could read on her own at age 2. Her nieces and nephews only picked up reading at about 5 when they hit kindergarten. She said my time with her has been well-spent. I was so happy to hear that my no-pay leave is not wasted - I don't think Ying Ying will learn to read so soon had I not been around with her, taking her to classes and reading to her daily. It is also God's gift that she is a fast learner when comes to books. Now the question is - should I take NPL again when no.2 comes along too?

Such is a dilemma of life. :/